I was able to hold the boys again at the same time, but Brecken wasn't himself. He was super calm and snuggled right in, while Asher wasn't himself either. He had a hard tube being held. He only cuddled for 20 minutes, so i put him back and loved on Brecken for a little longer. Well little did i know Brecken needed a blood transfusion(his 4th). So ya, he probably wasn't wiggly because he felt like crap. Poor bug! And now today Asher was intebated(put back on the vent, a small surprise to me, and also super sudden). He has has TONS of gunk coming from his sinus, and in his mouth. I'm super concerned he may be getting sick (or is sick) he now is super sluggish. I can't tell if it's because he is tired from working so hard to breathe through the gunk for a day, the extra drugs they gave him to help him deal with being on the vent or something else.... Boo for a set back breathing wise. But they both are doing well and hanging in there for being 31 weekers. I sure love my tiny boys. Ps. I pumped 16+ oz of milk the other morning!!!! I would be a prize Holstein cow. And yet i still worry everyday how long i can keep my milk with out actually nursing or even really having much contact with the boys. If it will be enough for my boys? Ugg. The silly stresses of a NICU mom.
Hey mama!! I just started reading your blog - I believe we are both from the TTTS Hope and Connections FB page...anyway, I just wanted to pop in and say hi and congratulations on your precious miracles!! We will be praying and keeping you guys in our thoughts as they grow and become stronger! Such amazing little men you've got there :) I have ex-28 weekers who are now almost 6 months actual age and they are perfect. They had a 95 day NICU stay. While we were there we met so many other mommies of younger babes and there are sp many miracle stories out there, so keep being as positive as you are, your boys are fighters!! I also wanted to let you know that 6 months out, I am STILL pumping and the boys are still getting exclusively breast milk (aside from added formula to EBM for mineralization) - you can do it too! Some days it's up, some days down - for a while my supply even dropped to just 400ml a day because I couldn't keep up with pumping so often after the boys came home, so I was thawing my stock like a mad woman. But I got it back up to a point where they're back to getting just fresh BM...anyway, don't lose hope here either. You can totally do it for your little men!! Lots of love and prayers for those little guys! xo
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