Belly shots

Here are some pictures of my twin belly.  I kind of hate that i didn't get to go any longer. A- because of the babies, but b- i wanted that huge beautiful belly. I think going into labor and having the babies so early stinks, but not knowing what i could have done differently or if there was anything i could have changed makes me crazy sometimes. I felt like i had failed, my babies, my body, the doctors and my husband and girls. I just wanted to make it to 32weeks. It seems silly now (it was even a goal written in my hospital room the week i was there). Anyway i think another  part is everyone would always say oh you are so small you can't carry twins, or how will you be able to carry twins? I get a little poor me here in a second....Well everyone my body gave up after being jabbed, pried on and cut open in 3 different places trying to keep my babies alive at 19 weeks. You were all right, i can't carry twins. Not that any of that  mattered yes i went into labor early, but i had a strain of ecoli that Asher was getting sick from that he and my body knew it was time to get him out before he got worse off..... Thanks for listening to my rant. So things you might want to rethink saying when you see a pregnant lady, how will you ever carry twins(we'll do it one day at a time till or bodies give out) and then the other thing to not ask someone who has preemie babies, why did you have them so early (well it wasn't our choice,  very rarely do doctors know why babies come when they come, and it's probably a touchy subject  to the mom, so if she's not talking about she doesn't want to..  Ok, please don't feel bad if you are one of these people, because frankly I've asked the same questions, but now I'll really think about how i say things.