Oh my word these boys I must know that our home is tore apart and under construction. They are doing so well. Basically they are on very low oxygen settings both at 1/4 liter and 25 percent ish. And only getting vitamins and iron. The rest is just learning how to eat on their own. The are up to 3 a day feeds.! And both doing outstanding!!! Like at least the full feed or more. They do still have to have hernia surgeries and hopefully they can come home after that. Down side to them doing so well breastfeeding is well it's breastfeeding so I have to be at the hospital. Boo. I miss my girls just thinking about not going home for a while.
More details on the house. It's tore apart. We have basically studs for a batheroom and all the bedrooms need to be resheetrocked and painted..... yahoo for no more 1970's. But wow I'm stressed about how I'll get things put back together from up here. Lol
36 week stats-
Asher
16 &1/8th inches or 41 centimeters long
4 pounds 10.5 oz or 2110 grams
Brecken
15.5 inchesvor 39.5 centimeters long
3 pounds 13 oz or 1735 grams
Well the bits have been song so well the past few weeks. I almost forgot how easy things can change. Well, on Thursday Brecken started to get nasty bugers and things every morning. So much he would gag and vomit. Well today he had been Extremely swingy(even for him) and so our nurse had tried and switched and adjusted everything she could think of with no luck. When I got up to provo the was the doctor,reggie with repertory and our nurse I knew right away something was up. (I hadkind of thought ue had a cold since the vomit stuff had started, but the staff was quite sure it was mainly reflux and his bugers causing it). Anyway. He got labs drawn. And they came back positive for something(they don't have details yet. So my little Breckster is sick for the first time. I hate it. He is getting cuddles and lots of loves from me. And done well since I've been holding him. Maybe I should hold him all night. ;). On the other have Asher just had his first successful test weight of 9 mls. Ha ha. Yahoo. these bits sure know how to be extrs good while the other is sick.
Me and Brecken, third blanket due to pee and vomit today. Lol.
My husband and I were tentatively planning on taking our girls to Disney land this May. But with twin to twin/bedrest and delivery it didn't happen. So I've been thinking we needed to do a make up trip for the girls since they have been pawned off on Grandparent's since.... forever. We could never decide when to go, but now the boys have been stable for so long and they are probably going to start feeding orally(aka nursing kind of need a mom there for this) next week the time was now. So I racked my brain for a fun, inexpensive, non sweat your brains out, vacation. So we decided Yellowstone. What person doesn't like the mountains, wild animals, rivers, & geysers. Oh and we had a free place to stay just outside of West Yellowstone. Thanks grandpa Barclay!!! Well since I've been gone from the boys I've only teared up 5 times. Not bad if you ask me. My girls have been so good and so fun. I know I needed to do this vacation for them and it needed to be far enough away I couldn't cut it short to run back to the boys because I missed them. The twins are also doing awesome as well! They moved them to the B side nursery. This is a big deal. It means they are getting very stable. Asher is on a regular cannula at 1.5 liters and got an ng(nasal feeding tube) and weighs 3 pounds 7.5 ounces. Breken is still trying to ween back down from when he went to nasal cannula and kind of crashed. So he is at 2 liters on hiflo, and weighs 2 pounds 14.5 ounces. I can't believe they have both just about doubled their birth weight. It's so much fun seeing them woth chubby cheeks and fat creases in their wrists and feet.
Since being in the NICU it's opened my eyes wide! I thought that babies rarely died. You just don't hear about it. I've seen their tiny headstones at graveyards, but not ever really known any families very personally. But in the last 7.5 weeks there has been so many sweet spirits pass away. My heart breaks for the families left behind to pick up their lives and carry on. I can't imagine losing a child.
While we were I'm Houston for ablation surgery we had a very long and detailed meeting with the surgical team. In the meeting they discussed ALOT of very grim statistics. They pretty much prepared us for both the boys passing away within 24hrs post surgery. It was the longest 24 hours of my life(I'll post more details of the surgery another day). Anyway. I feel like I can almost relate to losing a child because in all reality i had to prepare myself to do so.... (i am VERY sure i still have no clue). Sorry for the ramblings. But today as I've sat here watching 3 of my neighbor babies get sicker and herd of 3 babies born 25 weeks and younger i just think of how incredibly blessed and lucky we have been. Yes Asher has been VERRY sick at times, but he's always pulled right through. The lord has a hand in all things and i see it every day. Some babies need time here, others just need long enough to get there bodies and go to the next step.... Anyway. Here is a picture of me and a few of my blessings_ i love that they have their name tags stuck on. It cracks me up.
I think Mr. Brecken is just hanging out waiting to go home. His nicu time has been so low key. I keep waiting for him to get sick or have a respiratory set back or something. But he doesn't or at least hasn't....
Well i was mostly right with my Asher. He has some sort of staff infection.... They think he could have gotten it with one off his iv's he got for his blood transfusion the other day (not the actual blood, but maybe the needle or something used to start an iv). They are always super careful to do everything to prevent this from happening, but.... It still does on occasion. So that's the bad scary yucky knews. Good knews is they have started the antibiotic, he hasn't needed to have anymore oxegen help(actually he is almost at 21%fio2 which is amazing). I think i told you he was intebated, and riding the vent. Well at 4am. He decided he had rested enough and yanked the tube out on his own time(kind of a scary deal,he had to oxygen support basically). So the staff quickly put him on a Niv. Which lots better, and he is doing very well. He has had crazy secretions on top of everything, so he's been a bit more irritable and sleepy. But he has loved his mommy time today(i didn't mind it,since i skipped holding yesterday so he could rest). So this is me and Ash Man, having our version of a "duckface selfy". Lol
